my baby oranje

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sampai jugak oranje ke cameron.
tahniah oranje kerana berjaya mendaki.
:)
nanti i anta u pegi carwash ye sayang

bebel day.

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assalammualaikum.

hari ni aku nak membebel boleh?

semalam, aku pegi tengok wayang dengan kawan aku.

cerita karak, amek tiket kol 11 malam.

ignoring the fact that i have to go back alone and sleep alone since all of my housemates have gone back to their hometown.

berani tak aku?

pastu nak tido, terhegeh-hegeh sensorang, selubung dalam selimut sampai kaki gatal pun dah tak berani nak garu.

sebab takut kot kot masa tengah garu tu ada makhluk nak sentap tangan aku.

over tak i noks??

ok, so bukan itu yang nak dibebelkan.

yang nak dibebelkan adalah, orang -orang jakun yang macam tak pernah masuk pawagam.

semalam pegi tengok wayang pastu ada la beberapa orang lelaki dok belakang.

lepas tu bising nak mampus.

borak pun kuat.

bhai, lu nak borak, lu pegi starbucks ar lepak-lepak sambil hirup kopi.

tapi kalau lu tak mampu, lu pegi kedai mamak.

tak payah nak susahkan orang lain kat panggung wayang tu.

apa yang mamat jakun buat ni adalah, macam dia cuba predict every scenes dengan lawak sumpah-tak-kelakar dia tu.

kononnye kan, ni kan cerita hantu, penuh dengan suspens.

pastu dia cuba la wat kelakar.

'ala, pasni mesti hantu tu blablabla.. hahaha'

tak ke kuangajaqq namanya tu.

kalau suara kau selow tu tak pa lagi.

ni suara dah mengalahkan suara pelakon dlm pawagam tu.

sangat wattahey kan?

pastu dia macam reka-reka dialog bodoh dia sendiri,

pastu cakap kuat-kuat.

ish. serius aku rasa cam nak lempang laju2 kat muka dia.

kawan aku cakap, dia ni sebenarnya penakut, lepas tu mungkin cara dia nak kurangkan takut dia tu, dia buat bising.

betul gak tu. aku setuju.

sampai satu tahap tu, aku tak tahan,

aku toleh tengok dia, lama gak ar aku tengok dia.

memula aku nak cakap, 'diam boleh tak?'

tapi kan, aku risau pulak, dia terasa hati (padahal takut sebab badan dia macam bonzer siot)

aku takut kang aku tegur dia,

dia kuatkan suara dia, lagi la memalukan aku.

i kan diva, of course kena jaga my waterface.

lalalala~ :p

pastu sepanjang movie tu lah dia memekak sekor-sekor dia.

apasal laaa, nasib aku sangat tak bernasib baik.

dah dua tiga kali aku tengok wayang, orang-orang kat belakang seat aku semua jakun-jakun belaka.

dan ni semua terjadi dekat pawagam kat ipoh je.

kat hometown aku takde lak kes-kes gini.

orang ipoh suma sporting-sporting.

aku rasa yang buat perangai ni adalah orang-orang luar yang datang berhijrah ke ipoh.

masa aku tengok pirates haritu,

bengong gak mamat yang duk belakang aku.

tapi tak la se annoying mamat yang aku cita tadi.

but still annoying jugakk!

bising-bising pastu suka buat analisis cerita tu.

well, aku tak kisah la kau nak buat analisis ke thesis ke pasal movie tu,

tapi cakap slow boleh.

tak pun wat analisis lepas movie tu.

ha, ko buat sekali dengan kertas kerja analisis kau tu.

dah nak analisis sangat kan.

pastu time tu jugak, ada lagi sekor mamat ngok ni.

aku rasa member si penganalisis movie tersebut.

boleh tak dia tidur, pastu berdengkur macam gajah abaq hanggg.

aku tengok pirates tu,

memula ingat bunyi ombak ke apa dalam cerita tu..

pastu dengar macam dekat lak tu.

sangat berkesan sound system dia.

sekali aku toleh belakang, tengok dia dok sedap tidoq.

aku macam nak pi picit je idong dia selama 33 saat.

pastu semua pakat toleh belakang tengok dia.

kawan sebelah dia macam malu je

abeh tu, sapa suruh kau tak kejutkan dia.

well, bukan lelaki je yang jadi camni.

pempuan pun ada.

yang pempuannya versi ngengada pulak.

masa aku tengok citer red riding hood ritu,

dok bising-bising.

'eeiii, ensemnyeewww, emsemnyewwwwww'

weh der, aku pun kagum dengan kehenseman beliau,

tapi aku mention dalam hati jelah.

argh.

hangen.hangen.

eh, pastu kan, semalam aku nampak ada dua pondan tengok citer karak.

hehe.

tapi takde lak dorang nak mengada-ngada ke apa.

last-last pondan gak yang ok kan?

haih.

ok ah,

letih dah membebel.

aku macam berat hati la nak tinggalkan ipoh ni.

sobsobsob.

semua housemate dah balik.

tinggal aku je belum balik.

kenapa?

sebab nak hangout dengan beliau sementara masih ada masa ni.

aku dah rindukan housemate aku.

:((((

camne ni? :((

aku tak suka perpisahan.

macam aku ni yang dah belajar di banyak sangat tempat.

sekolah banyak, universiti pun banyak.

lagila kerap menghadapi perpisahan.

tapi still, aku masih belum biasa dengan perpisahan.

:(

tak faham

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kenapa susah sangat nak faham?

salah aku ke susah nak memahami atau salah mereka susah nak difahami?

mungkin salah aku.

sebab dari dulu sampai sekarang, aku masih belum gagal untuk gagal memahami mereka.

ntah la ..

i'm wordless

p/s : susah sangat nak upload gambar sekarang, since this effin broadband is not cooperating at all !

ipoh ..

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i'm just starting to love Ipoh.
how can i leave Ipoh when my other half is still in Ipoh?

this is quite sad

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there are like two or three weeks left before i leave Ipoh.
this is sad. seriously.
sad to leave my dearest friends. :(
sad to leave this daily routine that i am used to for one year.
on weekdays, get up early in the morn, getting ready for class.
go to class 10 minutes late, plus being chased by the guard for taking lecturers parking spot.
eating lunch with dearest housemates and classmates.
on weekend, go back to my hometown, coming back on Sunday excited to meet housemates although we've just been apart for two days.

watching movies with buddies.
laugh hysterically at our own stupid jokes.
going to Giant Tambun to buy necessary and sometimes (always actually) unnecessary things.
going to rm1 shop to buy rm1 stuff.
gossiping about the neighbour next door.
shopping madly at Jusco and Ipoh Parade.
sight seeing at Gerbang Malam.
yes. i would miss all this once i leave Ipoh.

and i would be missing YOU too..

don't put on too much hope

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to avoid disappointment.
betul tak?
kalau tak mahu kecewa, janganlah terlalu berharap.

dulu, aku pernah update status fb.
expect the worst so that you won't be disappointed.
ada yang setuju ada yang tidak.
terpulang pada persepsi masing-masing

but that is how things work for me.
janganlah terlalu berharap pada benda yang tak pasti.
takut benda tu mengecewakan kita di kemudian hari.
just go with the flow.

tapi tidak berharap tidak bermakna tidak berusaha.
berusahala semana yang kita mampu dan sama ada pulangannya berhasil atau tak, itu bergantung kepada kesudian Yang Maha Esa nak bagi ke tak.

aku ni jenis berusaha.
tapi bukanlah yang jenis berusaha bersungguh-sungguh.
sebab kalau terlalu berusaha, kalau kita tak dapat apa yang kita mahukan,
mesti frust menonggeng.
ada tak orang yang berusaha bersungguh-sungguh, bila tak dapat apa yang dia mahukan,
dia tak rasa kecewa pun.
ada ke?
hurm.
mungkin ada.


yeah.
i might see things negatively.
maybe there are certain people out there think differently.
berusaha bersungguh2 tangga kejayaan.
i like to see things out of the box.
aku suka berfikir di sebalik nya.

so, bagi aku kalau kau berusaha bersungguh-sungguh dan kau berjaya.
itu rezeki kau.
tak semestinya kau berusaha bersungguh-sungguh dan kau akan berjaya.
ada jugak orang yang nasibnya tidak selalu baik.
berusaha sekadar yang mampu.
kalau kau berusaha sekadar yang mampu dan kau berjaya.
tell me.
i would be the first person to congratulate you.
:)

and for YOU.
please learn to appreciate people.
:)

i am going insane

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why is everybody seems to avoid me ?
or it might be me who try to avoid myself from everybody ?

i don't know.
i don't understand.
am i the weird one?
or are they the cuckoo one?

let them be.
just let them be.

mode : gila sebab nak exam. otak dah disumbat dengan pelbagai teori sampai rasa ada yang melimpah ruah keluar ikut telinga dan hidung. sekian.

the stalker strikes again

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ok, this might be the dozenth time i'm talking about this bloody stalker.
well, she comes back to haunt me.
so, let's haunt her back.

this time, i decided to join her.
you know, in this game created by herself.
and i really hope that she looses tragically.
yeah, that's what i hope.

previously, i had never interested with her game.
i had always decided to quit before finishing the game.
why?
because i felt that this game is just a waste of time.
and i have a lot more better things to do.

but this time is different.
because, i am quite surprised by her desire.
the desire to stalk me. haha.
so you want to play the game so much?
it's on, baby !!

despite of my admiration of her desire,
i have to admit that, i'm still curious about her seriousness ?
if you are serious to play this game with me,
why don't you come up and face me in reality.
only losers compete in the virtual world.
stop using facebook as your medium and start collecting your confidence that are broken into pieces (i guess) and face me.
in reality ok.

or if you are that chicken to meet me in reality.
you don't have too.
you can just reveal the real you (although i have known the real you better that you know yourself)
no need to be imposer.
pretending to be some one else.
pretending to be so interested to know me.
just cut the crap lah.
don't you feel ashamed of yourself?
trying so hard play around with me thinking that i have been fooled by you.
where the reality is, you are fooling yourself.
do you think that i am as stupid as you?
or worse, do you think you are smarter that me?
haha.
funny.

so, dear miss stalker.
let's play the game.
let's see who's the smarter one.
:)