pretentious

pretending to smile happily
pretending to laugh hysterically,
pretending to talk excitedly,

yeah, i was just pretending all this while,
and will be continue faking all those smiles and laughs.
i am a FAKE.

got to pretend to be normal.
got to pretend to prove to Abah and Mama that i am strong and can be relied on.
got to pretend to prove to myself that i have the strength.
the strength to face all these.

ABAH, MAMA, I LOVE BOTH OF YOU SO MUCH

abah, caq berdoa supaya abah cepat sembuh sebab caq pun tau, abah pun dah letih berpura-pura gembira depan kami kan? caq sayang sangat dekat abah...